“Do you need anything? I don’t mind looking for them.”

“Sure, can you help with...”

The girl offers her help. She couldn’t help herself asking people what they need, or what they want. She wanted people to be happy, to be at ease on their daily lives. She thinks that helping others can also help her at ease, to see people appreciate what she did. To see others happy and healthy and well. But, not everyone is like she thought.

“This is why you shouldn’t always be nice to people. Some people just happen to be a******,” a friend once told her that.

But, she never stops. She wanted to help. She just doesn’t quit thinking people would need her help. She would do anything to help others, despite getting talks behind at her back or being judged.

I didn’t say she never wanted to stop. She did actually. She felt so empty. She felt her heart was calling her selfish, why didn’t you help them, why did you lie to them? She didn’t intend to. She said she doesn’t want to get hurt anymore. As soon as she touch her heart and close her eyes, a glimpse of bright light appeared before her. The light was smiling at her, touching her head and gave her a hug. She didn’t see the face behind the mask, but the girl cried in her arms.

“Dear daughter, no matter how the world treats you badly. Always remember that kindness is not to be judge by imperfect humans, but is for you to believe that there are still good in this world to rely on. For you to believe that kindness is to be touch by the heart, not for the eyes to see.”

That’s right. Kindness is a gift, whereby the eyes could only see less than the heart could feel. The hands and smiles are gifted for the sake of a better world. She did felt happy when she lend her hands to lift people’s burden. She did felt happy when her smile lifted people’s sorrow. She did felt happy when her silliness lifted people’s spirit.

Now you know why she never stop, would you ask her again?

I was scrolling around through my 'memory box' as I like to call it. I stumbled upon a wishlist that I want to achieve before I reached 30. Here are the lists:
1. Travel the world. 2. Have my own car.  3. Have my own house/ studio apartment. 4. Get to do a full/part-time job. 5. Get married.
Believe me when I said this, I actually laughed out loud. Then I paused. I realized that I have actually accomplished some of the wishlists. 
1. I had traveled to Korea and China independently. 2. I actually had my own car few months ago. 3. I have actually done a part-time job as a waiter at a cafe.
Well, 3 over 5 of the wishlists accomplished is quiet the achievement. I am grateful that I was blessed with the experience and opportunity given. Looking forward to achieve the other two of the wishlist. Ameen

This is what I have to deal with most of the time when people asked for my name. 
Anonymous: What's your name? Me: Just call me Fiffy.  Anonymous: I mean, what's your full name? Me: Tengku Nurathifi. Anonymous: (astonished) wow you must be related to royal family hah. which royal family you're related to?  Me: I never know about that. Anonymous: Where are you from? Me: I'm from Terengganu.  Anonymous: Then must be related to Terengganu royalty lah.  Me: (okay...)
And then some of them would start bragging about how they know people who has royal first names and retell how I probably relate to any of them. However, there are also people who give different responses regarding my name. Because I am an introvert, I tend to only hangout with people that I really close with (and I just happen to only hangout with my Chinese friends because they're the only friends i had since kindergarten). But some people who don't even know me, pretended that they already know EVERYTHING about me. 
"look, look. she's all alone again. never mingle with anyone else except with the Chinese. sombong, tak nak lepak dengan org macam kita sebab tengku (too arrogant to come and hangout with us because she's a 'Tengku'). 
even worst, I was called as 'princess' in a negative way, because I don't mingle with other people other than my kindergarten friends. People tend to think i was too arrogant to make the first move to make friends, when in fact i was just too shy to! As an excuse, people tend to misinterpret my social circle based on my first name, just to make them feel better about it! After what i have to go through during high school (there were also during camps, trips, events etc), I started to stop introducing myself using my full name, and go with 'Fiffy' (the nickname I had since I was a baby). Unless I was asked for my full name.
So my dear readers, whoever thought that it was easy to answer your questions regarding my family history among the generations of royalty, it is not. It's not that we are too arrogant to tell you our family history, but it is because we only believe that we just happen to be bestow with the name and, have no interest of knowing why it was given in the first place. We were taught to be kind and humble carrying our first names, because of the negative responses we received from stereotype people like you. We want to show you that regardless of our name, we are just the same. We are also ordinary people who are living in an ordinary live just like any of you. So do not misjudged our personality and lives based on our names. It doesn't matter what we are named as, as long as it brings good meanings, that's good enough for me. 

Late at 2.00 am,

Suddenly all my life flashed before my eyes,

I took out my laptop and my hands started moving on its own,

Wanting to take this opportunity to be grateful

I have prayed and thank God for this gift He gave me

For all the hardships that I have been through for the past years.

I have learnt so much

Cried, screamed, running away from my problems

Led to me to the greatest future that awaits me.

I wish I could turn back time

To tell the ‘past’ me that it’s okay to cry,

To scream your heart out in the middle of the night

To let go of things along the way

Because you’re doing fine now.

Remember you said you might be left alone one day?

You’re actually made awesome friends right now, and they loved you so much.

Remember you said love was a stupid joke and you’re not gonna fall for it anymore?

You actually found someone who’s willing to do anything for you.

Remember you said how you wish to have those cool family pictures you saw on Instagram?

You’re actually got your own cool family photos saved in your laptop right now, TONS!

Remember you thought your dreams crushed in your face?

Guess what, the life goals you have right now are WAY better than those stupid dreams.

I am grateful of where I am now, so don’t worry alright?

We both learnt a lot, but yeah, we made it this far.

You’re stronger than you look.

Love yourself like how I am now.

Because you’re actually enjoying what life throws at you and live with it.

Thanks for standing strong to make me come this far,

I am really grateful.

so tonight is Freestyle Friday, this is when i'll be making fiction short stories or just randomly shared what movie i just watched a few minutes ago. 

source: Google images

first of all, i never ever get tired of watching this movie, EVER! you could say, i would probably saved this movie for future use, while cuddling with my husband on movie night. anyway, back to place, i L.O.V.E this movie so much! it's called Letter To Juliet, from the original story by Lise Friedman. okay, so this movie is about a girl named Sophie, who was supposed to be having a honeymoon with her fiance Victor, end up travelling all around Verona, to help an old lady Claire and his grandson Charlie, to find her lost love. it sounds romantic, doesn't it? looking for her lost love all the way across the sea, i mean literally, Claire was from England, and her lost love, Lorenzo, was from Italy. and she's an old lady, 65 years old!

source: Google images

in that movie, everything is just romantic! in the beginning, you can actually tell the honeymoon was just not going to work for Sophie and Victor. I literally didn't like the guy from the start, i mean, he was just not the best listener for a girl like Sophie that is passionate about writing and sharing stories. Victor is a chef, yea, still think all Italian chefs are romantic? I was really glad Sophie get to go to Verona to discover what she was missing in the relationship that she really wants. i mean, Verona, where Romeo and Juliet was born, where love is portrait as unbreakable souls and two hearts beat as one. i never ever get tired of the play, but i really hate the ending as well. i really hope Shakespeare would have thought a better ending than dying and bloodshed.

source: Google images

anyway, back to the movie, Sophie met with Claire, who wrote the letter to Juliet to ask for advice about her affections towards Lorenzo, that she thought was never meant to be due to her parents' disapproval. Sophie who found the letter, wrote back to her as Juliet's secretary, and Claire end up coming to Verona to search for her long lost love 50 years ago! along with her grandson, Charlie. and let me tell you, how charming a British man can be (especially their accent), but Charlie was totally different. he was not a total charmer technically, but physically, he is WOW indescribable.

source: Google images

so, the three of them Sophie, Claire and Charlie traveled around Verona to look for Lorenzo. it wasn't easy, but Sophie was smart to shortlisted all the "Lorenzo Bartolini"s by predicting how far he could have moved from the last time Claire and he met. and well, along the way, Charlie who was a total stubborn, actually felt for Sophie, despite knowing that she's engaged. 

my favorite part! (source: Google images)

the ending, yea, Claire actually found Lorenzo and got married too! Claire and Charlie, well, it took them long enough for them to realize they actually loved each other, undeniable to their feelings. oh, that was my favorite part. Charlie literally went all 'romeo' confessing his love to Sophie from under the balcony. it was heart-melting, i cried like crazy! i actually felt like Charlie was talking to me! yea, i screeched like a lil girl, so what, it was romantic okay.
i really recommended to everyone to watch this movie, especially with a special someone, because i know i will! before i end this, i would like to share you my favorite quote from the movie itself:

source image: Google. edited: by me.

it's #ThrowbackThursday! and yes, I got a story to tell. you know that feeling of checking off your bucket list of things to do before 30? yea, i was totally hyped about it!
on 28th February 2016, thanks to our membership in Kelab Rakan Alam Sekitar, we are practically chosen to go to Zoo Negara as volunteers! man, i remember how excited we were waiting for this day to come. we literally thought of everything to do, what to wear, and have no idea what should we even bring. anyway, we were all dressed in our class jerseys and off by bus, from 7 am and arrived at 8.30am. 
we registered, got our wrist tag on, just desperately waiting for our names to be called. we were going to meet all the animals up close, how's that not exciting! and the best thing about my part of the job, i get to photograph everything and everywhere I go. (since the zoo has the health policy of, you can't just simply come from one cage to another, cause there might be diseases that you carry with you while cleaning the cages. and yea, it's dangerous for certain animals). 
so since i wasn't involve in cleaning cages, i got to walk around the zoo all by myself, going cages by cages to look at all the animals. i was stocked to see my favorite animal, the giraffe of course! you can actually feel how tiny and short you are just standing beside it. and, do you know, the elephants actually enjoyed bath! they even do tricks while at it, it was so adorable! and you have no idea how actually tamed the carnivores were at zoo! the lions were so tamed, they actually liked being rubbed on the head! but you don't want to mess with their tigers, they're kind of "unpredictable". the zookeeper told us the tigers have their own mood-swings, there'll be time they're playful and tame, but there're times they just feel like biting your hand off. oh, and they hate bath! 
don't forget the deers, they're so funny, in my opinion. they love moving in herds, especially when they know when there's food awaiting behind the gate. they would just swarmed at you, for the food! and for a girl who never seen a camel up close, i really realized why the others were saying they're quite "slimy". it drooled a lot, especially while eating, and "poo" as soon as they just ate after (does that mean camel digest food quickly?). i didn't get to see the orang-utan up close, due to its tight security, cause' they are smart creatures. but my friends who were in charge of cleaning their cages, told us that the orang-utans are bigger than they thought! and have no toilet manners, especially there was this one orang-utan, who had terrible stomachache, and they say the smell was horrifying! they even liked to stare at people who cleaned it for them, probably knowing how honored to have their butts "wiped". 
in the end, i didn't get to see the reptile section. yea, no panda as well (too expensive, and they're too fragile to have volunteers to do work in there). i get to enjoy the view at the aquatic section tho, the penguins were just adorable! after that whole day spent at the zoo, it was actually worth it. yea, it was exhausted, but it was fun-kind-of-exhausted, feeling all adventurous. 
i wish i can tell you more, but i hope it'll give you a heads-up if you're interested in participating as volunteers! check out their websites: http://www.zoonegaramalaysia.my/volunteerprogram.html

before it all began..

wrist tags!

the best way to end the day.

source: Google images

It's 12 oclock midnight. And here i am, sleepless. 
Just a quick update of how happy I am that my blog is completely changed! the layouts, templates and the best part, is my header! damn, it took me almost 5 hours to just create my own header to look the way i want it. and i can finally say how impressed i am for it. those photoshop classes actually paid off. 
my housemates were amazed that i have my own blog, but they weren't impressed that it's not as famous like the bloggers they knew. it did hurt my feelings a bit, but in my opinion, blogging actually make me learned a lot of new things online. like coding especially. i  may not be as pro as a real tech-coder (or whatever you call it), but being able to learn the basics all by myself, actually makes me feel good about it. how proud of myself for doing all this.
i know i am not about sharing beauty tips, fashion (i am terrible at it), or giving relationship advice, or family issues. but i like i said, i am more about telling stories and making confessions about what i am going through with my life. sure, they're not as cool as other people who went on adventures, travel the world. but, sharing my stories about what i can learn from it or what others can learn from it, is what i really aim for. i mean, if i get to travel the world, i would definitely post about it, i promised!

so that's about it, i am out of words. goodnight zzZZ

you know that feeling when you can't sleep, and suddenly you have all these millions thoughts that came out from nowhere? yea, let's talk about my millions thoughts at 3AM.
for the moment, I wanna be grateful of so far, my life is completely in order. more like back into place. and for this, I am so grateful for the people that has been a part of it.
So here's my million thoughts of the night: Friendship. looking back before I got this far into my life, I have pretty much go through loads of ups and downs, and believe me, i wasn't as strong as I am now. but, like they say, if you can make a change out of it, you'll be fine. and again, to get this far, i was pretty observant over everything that happened around me. i took notes (in my head, duh.) about how people make friends, what language they used, what topic they talked about, how they control their attitude, when and where is the best place for you to be crazy or polite. i was obsessed over everything everyone do, and start "coyping" a few things from it. i know i know, i sound like a crazy person. but hey, it worked pretty well in the end. but, there were things that i did "don't make sense" and was way out of my league. but then again, you wanna live, you need to get out of your comfort zone, just TRY EVERYTHING (this reminds me of Shakira's song). 
along the friendship lane, there was this group of friends that i was so inspired of becoming. they are amazing people, believe me. the fact making fun of each other seemed bad at first, but it actually got them closer, helping out each other, got their backs. i mean, i never have the idea that making fun of people offensively can actually create bonding (sigh). what got me inspired? that aura and energy they released to the surroundings that make other people laughed with them. i always enjoy that, making people happy is what i always aimed for. but having the right friends to do it with you, just makes it thousand times better. everyday i pray that these bunch of friends can't never fall apart, ever. like literally nothing can't ever break this.
the million thoughts on the late late night, i really really prayed that i would still be inspired by the amazing group of friends, that i looked up to. even though the the downs part are remained hidden behind doors, but i always pray these people could bring happiness to all the people around them, get others to inspire as well, just like i did.
personal note: thanks guys. i am grateful you're also part of my life, will always be. 

Being a student, is never easy. Being a teacher trainee, is NEVER EVER easy. Those who says that being a teacher is easy and lame, you can leave right now. 
It has been three years I've been in this programme (waiting for another two years till graduate). Being an English teacher in training took a lot of hardship along the way. Actually, it doesn't matter what course we took, it will all go in the same process. But do you know, we have to take TWO different courses in one semester? In my situation, there is the TESL as the core subject, and there's my forever arch enemy, Science as my elective subject. 
"hold up. It's just science. You guys are not learning biology, chemistry..."
NO! you have no idea! We do, okay! And like you people having that mindset saying being a teacher is easy, try to be one and you'll see what we're going through. Like I said, doesn't matter Science or Seni, or P. Jasmani; we here in IPG have to go deep into these subjects, just like any other students who take them as core subjects. and believe me, there is no such thing as "EASY" tasks from my campus. 
Lecturers here take our assignments pretty seriously (yea we also heard some IPGs were given easier assignments and easier marks too, so don't say it). We go deep into core subjects textbook and notes and even taking trips to University Malaya library almost every weekend. (don't you ever say we're living at ease, because we're not!) I can pretty much say we don't have life outside campus, especially when you're a JPP, that's the toughest. there is no such thing as 4 flat pointer here, just 3.8. (surprised?) and there's the lesson plans you have to prepare everytime during our practicum, the materials, the remedial/enrichment activities, the "whatever else we had to do to impress our lecturers". so, it's common for students like us have mental breakdowns. Here, we cried way more on our work than on our personal life. not only it is tough taking the 3-credit hour core subjects, but it's tougher when our elective subjects are also 3-credit hour too! we literally took everything we learnt very seriously. so here's the story:
"a friend of mine took Seni as his elective subjects. but it wasn't his first choice either. he didn't have the artistic flare, so we can't blame him, because it was either Science, Seni and P.Jasmani; so he has to make the biggest choice. we surveyed all the subjects from our seniors' experiences, and finally chose which one is more capable to handle. and as soon as we chose them, we soon realized that our RMK was totally different than our seniors above us. it really took us by surprise, it was like zombie apocalypse-kind-of-situation, we weren't prepare for the bad news. so this friend of mine, after two years taking Seni, it literally break him apart. believe me when I say this, their assignments are way tougher than any of us here. One task requires portfolios, lesson plans and artworks. so imagine having 2-3 tasks for one semester that they have to go through. he literally had restless nights and burnt the most midnight oil than anyone else. not only that, there was also the technology course that we have to take, and he didn't like that subject too. it made things worst for him. and today, he finally lose it and cried. we' all felt sorry for him. it was our first time seeing him 'losing it' in public like that, and it was our first time seeing him lost his confidence in scoring good pointers like he always do." 
to sum it up, we're all getting ready digging our own graves for this semester. even the juniors below us were already expressing to us how hard it was to be in IPG. so easy to say, no matter you're ipts/ipta/ipg student, we're all going through the same thing. so don't ever doubt what other people do in life, because you never know what they have gone through to be there, especially us IPG students.  Lesson of the Day: don't judge our life based on our social media posts, because not everything in our life is meant to tell. 

Can't believe I didn't slept yet. Just finish watching the movie Titanic.  wanna know what bugs me the most in life? is that i never know who i am and I didn't even take a chance to figure it out. people always said what they saw I do, but is that actually me, i wonder? sometimes i think so and sometimes I don't.  there's a whole lot big world out there that I didn't walk on. And a whole lot discovery to look into. Maybe that's how i find who i really am? There's a whole loads of things that I haven't tried yet. And i never take the courage to do it. How am I supposed to know who i am again? i wonder Live life the fullest. Be happy. Sure the world is a temporary setback, but that doesn't mean you're not allowing yourself to do things you want when it's right and good and happy, before you die, right? Heaven is a beautiful place to live the fullest and guaranteed, but the world is also providing things that we should probably do to make our life meaningful here before eternal life in the afterlife. I don't know if this will be inspirational enough for me. but I'm just saying I don't want my life being old and worthless and later regret. And I don't want the people around me, the ones i love, felt the same.  everyone has their own choice in life to be happy. it's time, i find mine. 

Relationships. Define perfect relationship. Fairy tales lie are the perfect relationship. There's no such thing as relationship goals. Just another disaster waiting to happen.  Crying all night, wondering weren't you enough? Why did he do that? Pleasure? Fun? Is there something that I didn't do that she can? Was I being too complicated for him to deal with? "I ain't no gentleman." "I don't do romantic." "I don't do surprises." "I don't like being mature in this relationship." What are these that I have to deal with? Are those jokes, but why was I offended? I can't stand of his jokes anymore It hurts. I'm tired At shouting and yelling And quarreling and accusing And threatening and  crying alone. And yet I'm crying now Wondering was I not enough All I ask was simple I just want you to listen Don't compare yourself to me We're not the same I'm not as strong as you I couldn't keep smiling forever like you do But there you are Liar. Listen if it's the best for us You're not always right And I'm not either but Doesn't mean that I'm always wrong I can't keep up I'm tired This game is too strong and yet you're still playing and I know how much you love winning all the time I'm crying again "i'll never let you cry." Was I not doing enough? Relationships. Where you're at?

I can’t stop myself from talking about this post. I just had to.

Lately this week has been so hectic for me. Believe me. Work assignments tutorial tasks and many more coming each day. But even though how much hectic we all were. There was something backing us up. Having that particular someone to share it with.

That particular someone? Yeah we have family and best friends. But what if I tell you that you can have that whole package into one? I’m talking about having that one person who is your family and the best friend you ever had. And the best part? You could end up falling in love with that particular person.

Between the end of July and the beginning of August this year, I’ve been seeing many of my friends started to share their pictures with that particular someone that they stumble with. And they’re not strangers, believe me. They’re once classmates, schoolmates or even their friends’ friends. In that connection, they found each other and it was unexpected. Looking back, have you ever thought of falling in love with your classmates or even someone that your friends introduced to you? Obviously it will be awkward at first, but then you slowly realise that you seemed to know that person since birth!

It was impossible for me to believe how my friends kept telling me that they don’t believe in falling in love and some even intend to not even try to look. The worst one was, they said they hated the opposite gender. But I knew from the beginning, soon enough someone will break that barrier between them. They will have to say yes.

And now looking at them, I can’t stop smiling myself. Scrolling through Instagram or Twitter, I’ve seen how they wanted to share how happy they’re together. Some people might called them annoying, but different people different perspectives, so that’s not my problem. Anyway, instead of media social, their happiness in public seemed so obvious. And they don’t even have to work hard to keep it that way, all they did was having fun like best friends and be caring like family.

I’ve to be honest. There’s no such thing as perfect relationship. NO SUCH THING. Every happiness, there’s always sadness on the side. There’ll be fighting quarrelling disagreeing and thousands of incontrollable words coming out from each other. So what? When you love someone so bad, you’ll crazily love each other as same as how crazy you guys hate each other. That’s the secret.

I’m not saying having relationship is scary, same saying as not every part of the earth is beautiful. They can be scary but at the same time you’ll realize how you can’t let him/her go because, you just literally can’t! You’ll know what I mean.

Good night peeps. 

What I ever do to you?  Where have I gone wrong?  Why you guys have to walk away pretending that I'm invisible? Why did you guys weren't listening when I'm talking in the group? I'm not appreciating of all the good things you did to me?  I'm not grateful to have people like you guys? I wasn't serious enough? I'm too childish to understand adult stuff?    Is this what I have to go through after this five years in college?  Walking in the crowd where people staring at me with those smirking eyes? Being alone cause' no one can accept me?  I was being too different? I was the weirdo all over again? Am I the only one that was crazy over guys when actually I wasn't?  Am I the only one that weren't being crazy and sarcastic when I was being myself?  Am I the only one that likes to be alone when actually I was waiting for companions?  Am I the only one looking for people to smile at me and wanted to be seen differently? Maybe I didn't see what I done.  I wasn't being too good to people.  I didn't serve you guys well enough.  I never done anything right in front of you. I was called the attention seeker for doing things that I loved.  I was called childish for crying over little things that I'm not supposed to cry about. I was called stupid for not thinking of others' feelings other than me.  I was called the attention seeker once more for trying to get along in the new society. What am I suppose to do?  Everything I done was wrong.  You guys slowly pushing me away. After all the efforts I've gone through.  I watch. learnt. and finally become one of you. But no. Instead I was once again called the attention seeker. For talking to people that I'm not suppose to talk to but you and they can.  So what happens now? Nothing was right for me to do.  Would it be nice then If I'll remained silent like I always do? Cry at someplace after the day was over?  Pretend to smile and be happy with my wrecked life outside home? Be alone, away from the noisy crowd?  Is this what it feels like to grow up? Is this what you guys trying to tell me?  So when I do become this person soon. Will you guys do me a favor?  Don't ask rhetorical questions about my improved attitude? Stop asking me why I prefer to be alone?  Stop hugging me, saying that you care to listen if I got any problems? Don't ask where I'm going when I needed it the most? Don't ask why I was being quiet the whole day?  Why didn't I join you guys for lunch?  Why I looked so gloomy day by day?  Because these questions are meant for you to answer.  Aren't you suppose to be happy now that I'm out of your way?  Finally you can stop controlling me because I'm not going to destroy your new life here.  Cheer. Be happy. That's what matters to me now. ' All I want was for you guys to be happy.  Being alone means I don't want to get involve in your life anymore.  And you guys can be happy. Smile.  No worries of me wrecking anything that you put your effort on.  Because I'll be dealing my life on my own for now. At the same time, I'll still be serving you guys when you needed me to.  Anything at all. I'll even catch a grenade for you if you're too scared to face it.  Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm going to be somebody I'm not soon. I mean, that's life right? To become somebody that I couldn't accept but you guys can? To be the person that I hate the most in people? But I'm still gonna smile. I promise. Thanks for lessons you guys put me into.  It's time for me to become that adult that you guys want me to be. Right?

Assalamualaikum wbt Saturday picnic again! It's been a while since our last picnic together. So today, two days after our first paper, which was Language Developement 1, our dear friend here decided to have a class picnic at Hutan Lipur Sungai Kanching. 
Early in the morning, we prepared our food at the campus's kitchen. The guys were frying sausages while the girls were frying rice. After everything was all set, we decided on our ride. which was Ruby's car, her best friend's car and Anis's car. It was half hour journey and we had fun along the way. Believe me, the best car pool I've ever had so far. 
And yeayyy we finally arrived, parked the cars, took our stuff and climbed up the stairs to where the picnic site actually is. When we got to the picnic site, man it was so breathtaking! (not saying there weren't any dudes there too, i was talking about the surrounding.) Imagine this. Tall trees everywhere; water flowing between the rocks, falling into the pool; birds and soft insects sound. You get the picture. 
As we're about to put down our stuff, we met ourselves with some "new friends". Instead of asking for food nicely, they end up stealing our food in pack. Man were we scared of them. So it was decided that the guys have to take turns watching over our stuff for us. Since everyone decided to play in the water, someone have to take charge right? 
Water wrestling, jump-diving, hold-your-breath competition, swimming, splashing each other. The guys even borrowed Ruby's shampoo to wash their hair. Everyone was feeling young again after having so much fun playing in the water. 
I'm really sorry that I have not much to tell. But it was really a long day and I really have no idea how to describe how our day was. If I got the power to record and playback my memory, I would love to let you guys see it too! I really gotta take a break now. I'm cold and got a major headache all of sudden. So, catch up later!

It took a while to climb up there just to capture this picture.

this was before everything began.

just enjoying the water.

photo credits by Ruby & Asyraff

Assalamualaikum wbt 

Assalamualaikum wbt
Weekend strikes again! But sadly tomorrow's going to be Monday, so booooo. But then again, I had fun today! 
After having class discussion on group whatsapp and a lot of persuading, we finally decided to have a picnic together. (and also because that there were classes before us also had picnics, so why not we do it too right?) 
So early morning at 10am, (kind of early) Huzaimi, Afiq, Asyraff aka Cerah, Tasha, Fatin, Aima and me decided to move out early to get some breakfast and do some grocery shopping for the picnic. Arrived at Amcorp Mall by LRT to Taman Jaya. We had breakfast at Atap-Atap Restaurant and it was delicious. The service was great too. We got our food real quick, or maybe it was because there weren't many people there. I had myself white rice with chicken lemon, and yeah it was worth 15 minutes wait, I guess. We took photos and took off to Giant to buy our grocery. Since I told everyone I'll be making egg sandwiches, I bought bread, eggs and mayonnaise. While everyone else was buying nuggets and sausages. And oh yeah, I can't believe someone bought chili sauce too. 
We went back home to IPBA and prepared our food at the campus's surau. Oh forgot to mention that we had our own kitchen here at IPBA, so you can cook whatever you whenever you want. It's free to use! Everything you need are there, what's missing are the ingredients that you want to cook with. So anyway back to the topic, I prepared my sandwiches while most the guys helped us out by frying the nuggets and sausages. Once it's all complete, we all ran to the Kerinchi LRT station because we thought the clouds were going to pour out, but it didn't. 
Rode the LRT to KLCC and walked to Suria Park. We found the perfect spot and laid all of our foods there. And like usual, wemake fun of each other, but as for Azlan, he prefer to play his video games more than chatting with us. So, I tag along. And as our class tradition, we took photos, Lots and lots of photos. 

breakfast at Atap-Atap Restaurant

the girls

Us.

Happy meals makes happy people.

Assalamualaikum wbt

Assalamualaikum wbt 
How's my readers doing? Good? Happy to hear that then? *smiley*
Wondering what's KPM stands for? aka Kementerian Pendidikan Malaysia at Putrajaya. And yeah, we had lunch there! Surprised? I'm sure most soon-to-be-teachers will be invited here someday, so be patience. 
At one clock, everyone gathered at Block 4's ground floor for the IPBA buses. By everyone, I meant all of the PPISMP TESL Jun 2014 and most of the JPPs. The mini bus was for the boys while the big official bus was for the girls. It was a long trip, more like an hour or so. 
When we arrived, everyone kind of looked like they just woke up. Man who wouldn't be sleeping in there? The soft comfty seats, adding on the a/c was set on the right temperature, makes the bus feels like a hotel suite! To be honest, I slept too! We all got off the bus and took a long walk from the front gate all the way to the main field, where the lunch was set up. And wow, the place was crowded! Food stalls everywhere! It wasn't an ordinary lunch, it was more like All-You-Can-Eat buffet! I was really pumped up when I saw the signs from each stalls. There were kebab, satay, cendol, roasted beef and many more. and by 'many more', i meant to say that because I didn't a get chance to look at all of the stalls due to the crowd. But the best part of the buffet was the fried ice-cream! I've been eager to have that for quite some time now, and finally I got it! Not just one, but two fried ice-creams per person! worth the queue *smiley with tears* I got myself oreo and chocolate ice-cream, my favorite!
Overall, the best moment was having everyone to take group pictures together. 

Smile ;)

Girls from my batch

We all had an awesome free lunch!

photo credits to Ruby & Asyraff

Assalamualaikum wbt 
"Selamat Hari Raya kepada saudara serta saudari  setahun hanya sekali merayakan hari yang mulia ini." full copyright Selamat Hari Raya by Sanisahuri
Hey it's still Syawal month in Islam calendar right? It ain't over till the month reached the end of the day. So, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Eid to my muslims friends and followers and readers all over the world! Firstly I would like to apologize for all my wrongdoings with you guys and hope you guys will forgive me. 0-0 yeah? *laughing with tears*
After I got back from celebrating Happy Eid at my hometown, I was really excited that there'll also going to be another celebration at IPBA as well! My first Aidilfitri celebration at college, isn't that great!
Early in the morning, everyone dressed their very best! oh how gorgeous my housemates looked! I wore my long blue jubah with turquoise-colored shawl and my blue shoes. haha go blue! Walking all the way to class, wow how beautiful and charming the seniors looked! It's like colors everywhere! Finally, as soon as I stepped into my class, man how my heart skipped a beat to see the guys looked so charming with their baju melayu and kain sampin. Well, you don't see that everyday right? Since I brought my monopod with me, I "bravely" asked everyone to take a group selfie together, and happy to say, they all agreeed! Well it took a while to persuade them, thanks to Tasha and Ruby. *smile with tears* At first we took group pictures in class until Tasha got a better idea by taking the pictures outside the class! Man it all turned out so well, almost like we're photo shooting for fashion magazine! 
After all the picture taking, it was finally food time! It was a long queue, believe me! But luckily the food was worth the wait! There were satay, lemang, ketupat, rendang, soto, lontong and don't forget the biscuits and cakes! I took a big scoop of everything in one plate, and yeahhh I was very greedy and had my stomach full for maybe the whole day! Which was a good thing because I don't have to spend money on dinner tonight, haha! 
So after we had our feast, we spent the time talking and joke around in class, with the lights off! Actually it was kind of mourning time for us cause' Afiq kept asking opinions either he should stay in IPBA or accept the offer letter from this university that he applied for before he was chosen to be with us. So, still thinking about which choices will he made. If he leaves, it's kind of sad cause' we'll lose a big brother in our family *crying* but we don't want to stop him from achieving his dreams. 

From left: myself, Tasha, Ruby, Anis, Jess, Aisyah, Fatin, Gloria, Aima, Aimi

The guys.

From left: Afiq, Asyraff, Muizz, Isyraq, Syabil, Naim, Azlan, Huzaimi

The girls.

Single photoshoot.

My roomates. Fom left: Farhana, Ima, Ruby, Tasha, Aisyah, Anis, myself, Fatin

So, it ended well, kind of, I guess?
Assalamualaikum wbt