What I ever do to you?  Where have I gone wrong?  Why you guys have to walk away pretending that I'm invisible? Why did you guys weren't listening when I'm talking in the group? I'm not appreciating of all the good things you did to me?  I'm not grateful to have people like you guys? I wasn't serious enough? I'm too childish to understand adult stuff?    Is this what I have to go through after this five years in college?  Walking in the crowd where people staring at me with those smirking eyes? Being alone cause' no one can accept me?  I was being too different? I was the weirdo all over again? Am I the only one that was crazy over guys when actually I wasn't?  Am I the only one that weren't being crazy and sarcastic when I was being myself?  Am I the only one that likes to be alone when actually I was waiting for companions?  Am I the only one looking for people to smile at me and wanted to be seen differently? Maybe I didn't see what I done.  I wasn't being too good to people.  I didn't serve you guys well enough.  I never done anything right in front of you. I was called the attention seeker for doing things that I loved.  I was called childish for crying over little things that I'm not supposed to cry about. I was called stupid for not thinking of others' feelings other than me.  I was called the attention seeker once more for trying to get along in the new society. What am I suppose to do?  Everything I done was wrong.  You guys slowly pushing me away. After all the efforts I've gone through.  I watch. learnt. and finally become one of you. But no. Instead I was once again called the attention seeker. For talking to people that I'm not suppose to talk to but you and they can.  So what happens now? Nothing was right for me to do.  Would it be nice then If I'll remained silent like I always do? Cry at someplace after the day was over?  Pretend to smile and be happy with my wrecked life outside home? Be alone, away from the noisy crowd?  Is this what it feels like to grow up? Is this what you guys trying to tell me?  So when I do become this person soon. Will you guys do me a favor?  Don't ask rhetorical questions about my improved attitude? Stop asking me why I prefer to be alone?  Stop hugging me, saying that you care to listen if I got any problems? Don't ask where I'm going when I needed it the most? Don't ask why I was being quiet the whole day?  Why didn't I join you guys for lunch?  Why I looked so gloomy day by day?  Because these questions are meant for you to answer.  Aren't you suppose to be happy now that I'm out of your way?  Finally you can stop controlling me because I'm not going to destroy your new life here.  Cheer. Be happy. That's what matters to me now. ' All I want was for you guys to be happy.  Being alone means I don't want to get involve in your life anymore.  And you guys can be happy. Smile.  No worries of me wrecking anything that you put your effort on.  Because I'll be dealing my life on my own for now. At the same time, I'll still be serving you guys when you needed me to.  Anything at all. I'll even catch a grenade for you if you're too scared to face it.  Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm going to be somebody I'm not soon. I mean, that's life right? To become somebody that I couldn't accept but you guys can? To be the person that I hate the most in people? But I'm still gonna smile. I promise. Thanks for lessons you guys put me into.  It's time for me to become that adult that you guys want me to be. Right?

Assalamualaikum wbt Saturday picnic again! It's been a while since our last picnic together. So today, two days after our first paper, which was Language Developement 1, our dear friend here decided to have a class picnic at Hutan Lipur Sungai Kanching. 
Early in the morning, we prepared our food at the campus's kitchen. The guys were frying sausages while the girls were frying rice. After everything was all set, we decided on our ride. which was Ruby's car, her best friend's car and Anis's car. It was half hour journey and we had fun along the way. Believe me, the best car pool I've ever had so far. 
And yeayyy we finally arrived, parked the cars, took our stuff and climbed up the stairs to where the picnic site actually is. When we got to the picnic site, man it was so breathtaking! (not saying there weren't any dudes there too, i was talking about the surrounding.) Imagine this. Tall trees everywhere; water flowing between the rocks, falling into the pool; birds and soft insects sound. You get the picture. 
As we're about to put down our stuff, we met ourselves with some "new friends". Instead of asking for food nicely, they end up stealing our food in pack. Man were we scared of them. So it was decided that the guys have to take turns watching over our stuff for us. Since everyone decided to play in the water, someone have to take charge right? 
Water wrestling, jump-diving, hold-your-breath competition, swimming, splashing each other. The guys even borrowed Ruby's shampoo to wash their hair. Everyone was feeling young again after having so much fun playing in the water. 
I'm really sorry that I have not much to tell. But it was really a long day and I really have no idea how to describe how our day was. If I got the power to record and playback my memory, I would love to let you guys see it too! I really gotta take a break now. I'm cold and got a major headache all of sudden. So, catch up later!

It took a while to climb up there just to capture this picture.

this was before everything began.

just enjoying the water.

photo credits by Ruby & Asyraff

Assalamualaikum wbt 

Assalamualaikum wbt
Weekend strikes again! But sadly tomorrow's going to be Monday, so booooo. But then again, I had fun today! 
After having class discussion on group whatsapp and a lot of persuading, we finally decided to have a picnic together. (and also because that there were classes before us also had picnics, so why not we do it too right?) 
So early morning at 10am, (kind of early) Huzaimi, Afiq, Asyraff aka Cerah, Tasha, Fatin, Aima and me decided to move out early to get some breakfast and do some grocery shopping for the picnic. Arrived at Amcorp Mall by LRT to Taman Jaya. We had breakfast at Atap-Atap Restaurant and it was delicious. The service was great too. We got our food real quick, or maybe it was because there weren't many people there. I had myself white rice with chicken lemon, and yeah it was worth 15 minutes wait, I guess. We took photos and took off to Giant to buy our grocery. Since I told everyone I'll be making egg sandwiches, I bought bread, eggs and mayonnaise. While everyone else was buying nuggets and sausages. And oh yeah, I can't believe someone bought chili sauce too. 
We went back home to IPBA and prepared our food at the campus's surau. Oh forgot to mention that we had our own kitchen here at IPBA, so you can cook whatever you whenever you want. It's free to use! Everything you need are there, what's missing are the ingredients that you want to cook with. So anyway back to the topic, I prepared my sandwiches while most the guys helped us out by frying the nuggets and sausages. Once it's all complete, we all ran to the Kerinchi LRT station because we thought the clouds were going to pour out, but it didn't. 
Rode the LRT to KLCC and walked to Suria Park. We found the perfect spot and laid all of our foods there. And like usual, wemake fun of each other, but as for Azlan, he prefer to play his video games more than chatting with us. So, I tag along. And as our class tradition, we took photos, Lots and lots of photos. 

breakfast at Atap-Atap Restaurant

the girls

Us.

Happy meals makes happy people.

Assalamualaikum wbt